I do not have the mood to work nor do I have the mood to go for class tonight. All I feel like doing is to stare at my computer screen. I’ve always wondered how people can zone out for hours in a state of oblivion and here I am discovering the ability to do so.

My director is leaving today. I will miss her but I know it’s the best thing she could ever have done for herself and her family. Yet I feel like grabbing her and begging her not to leave. Selfish much? I guess… I bought a card for her last night and found that no matter how I tried to express my feelings about how much she has given me in the last 3 years, all I could say was “thank you”. I think I am becoming someone I never thought I would be. Verbalising my emotions is such a task and an effort, to the point that I just give up.

*shrugs* oh well…such is life. I still see the bigger picture so wallowing in self-pity is not an option. =)

I think a drink tonight would be good. Cheers!


familiarity of smell

I miss your smell….

If asked to take away my smell or taste I would say please take away my ability to taste but never take away my ability to smell.

Besides,it just might help me lose some pounds. And what is taste without smell? Bitter, sweet, salty, sour and umami. The important senses when tasting wine. But wine is not that great without the accompanied smell of oak and fruit.

Smell is what sends signals of familiarity to your brain, coupled with emotions, it makes perfect sense that smell is what lures me to people.

I realise that I probably would never be able to date 2 people who use the same perfume. I’d probably end up very confused.

Smell is comforting to me but right now, even the smell of my smelly pillow can’t relieve me of my constant eccentricity.

Time to get rid of it!


I woke up this morning and felt like my life was a complete mistake. And then I realised I had to face the world. But is it actually the world that I dread?


drama rama

Happy birthday again ally! Hope you had smashing good time last night...and sorry my performance wasn't to your expectation. =)

It was a crazy night with drama that could last a lifetime. Too bad it wasn't mine.

And this blog is for you xiao mei. You can remind me to blog in a week's time. My sentence construction is way whacky right now. Me..sick...study....how?



1) How important does a person have to be before they are considered
assassinated instead of just murdered?
2) If money doesn't grow on trees then why do banks have branches?
3) Since bread is square, then why is sandwich meat round?
4) Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. . but it's only a
"pennyfor your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?
5) Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were
buried in for eternity?
6) Why does a round pizza come in a square box?
7) What disease did cured ham actually have?
8) How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would
be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?
9) Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake
up like every two hours?
10) If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?
11) If you drink Pepsi at work in the Coke factory, will they fire you?
12) Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?
13) Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in
binoculars to look at things on the ground?
14) How come we choose from just two people for President and fifty for
Miss America?
15) Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see
you naked anyway.
16) If a 911 operator has a heart attack, whom does he/she call?
17) Why is "bra" singular and "panties" plural?
18) Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet soup?
19) Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll
squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out!"
20) Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a
horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?
21) Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?
22) When your photo is taken for your driver's license, why do they tell
you to smile? If you are stopped by the police and asked for your license,
are you going to be smiling?
23) If Jimmy cracks corn and no one cares, why is there a stupid song
about him?
24) Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?
25) If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a
coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?
26) Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but
don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?
27) Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're
both dogs!
28) What do you call male ballerinas?
29) Can blind people see their dreams? Do they dream?
30) If Wyle E. Coyote had enough money to buy all that ACME crap, why
didn't he just buy dinner?
31) If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from
vegetables, what is baby oil made from?
32) If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
33) Is Disney World the only people trap operated by a mouse?
34) Why does the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the
same tune?
35) Why did you just try singing the two songs above?
36) Why do they call it an asteroid when it's outside the hemisphere, but
call it a hemorrhoid when it's in your butt?
37) Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad
at you, but when you take him for a car ride; he sticks his head out the


Dream a little dream

So strange...I've been having wierd dreams lately. Of various people from my *past*. Waking up feeling "woah...wtf?"

I think I need to stop reading into my dreams...It's really getting me down.

Anyway, does anyone have a scratch or cut or something on their face? It'll freak me out if someone does.



I am bored shitless and so sick of working and studying..I wish I could just pack up and leave and not feel a thing...But all these responsibilities are floating around in my pretty screwed up brain.
Just heard news that one of my group members for my tax module has pulled out leaving only 2 left in my group. The assignment due next week is tailored for 4 and so my workload has doubled. grrrrr....
What am I complaining about anyway? A good friend of mine just got discharged from the hospital yesterday afer donating half her liver to her dad who suddenly had liver failure. The operation was SG$250k. Really reminds us to save for a rainy day huh..
Anyway, got to put on a smiley face for a client function tonight. Why do I organise such stupid events? Serves me right.
Oh man,I'm blabbering...am I becoming a serial blogger? =p