I do not have the mood to work nor do I have the mood to go for class tonight. All I feel like doing is to stare at my computer screen. I’ve always wondered how people can zone out for hours in a state of oblivion and here I am discovering the ability to do so.

My director is leaving today. I will miss her but I know it’s the best thing she could ever have done for herself and her family. Yet I feel like grabbing her and begging her not to leave. Selfish much? I guess… I bought a card for her last night and found that no matter how I tried to express my feelings about how much she has given me in the last 3 years, all I could say was “thank you”. I think I am becoming someone I never thought I would be. Verbalising my emotions is such a task and an effort, to the point that I just give up.

*shrugs* oh well…such is life. I still see the bigger picture so wallowing in self-pity is not an option. =)

I think a drink tonight would be good. Cheers!