It's raining, wet, cold and completely miserable...working from home isn't exactly ideal when all I wanna do is put on a good movie, hide under the warm blanket with a cup of tea.

My buddy just called and said she's void of human contact and warned me that she'll be engaging in verbal diarrhoea at the dinner table tonight. How bout a tip, this writing on my blog phase is kinda helping me right now so maybe you should try it. Seriously, airing dirty laundry ain't my cup of tea but sometimes it takes your mind off things. Or you can spend your time practicing han yu pin yin...

It's 12pm now, gotta head into work by 2.30 for a meeting so I'm off to have a run...I've been running for the past 4 days now, and really not having much of an appetite...this better pay off...I want my 6 packback!!!...

Is being gay really that hard?

This question really stumps me..

The legal reform in today's news has legalized de facto relationships but will continue to disallow same sex marriages. Seriously...does it matter that much?

I was at my collegue's 40'th birthday 2 weeks ago and her husband's sister is gay. She mentioned that in the past 20 years, she was working to support herself and her partner. However, just a couple of months ago, her partner left her after receiving her inheritance and now she's left with nothing. What a b*tch! Good on those reforms when it can protect the innocent to a certain extent. But at the end of the day, get off your ass and do something about it and stop wallowing in despair..OMG I've become such a heartless person.

It seems like every girl's fantasy is to grow up and have the perfect wedding. May I ask why? why is it that this seems to be a common trend? What I don't understand is why I don't have that dream? I've never had the desire to want to be married. How bizarre...

My cousin lives with her partner in Washington. They've been together for over 20 years and my cousin was Liz's first girlfriend yet they managed to stay together for so long...is anyone really straight? or gay? I've always questioned why most of my ex's who are straight would actually go out with me and it's all the same old answer.blah blah blah.. For once, I just wanna have good sex, hang out and when I ask the question of why they still engage in it, I wish I could get a different response like "cos I like the sex" or "I'm straight but u satisfy me".

I think relationships are a no go for me for a while...I just wanna have fun and not get myself too involved in anything.

It's been a year!

wow..how time has flown by so quickly..it's been over a year since the last entry and trying to remember my password to log into my blogspot account hasn't been easy.

Time to recollect and consolidate all that has happened:
- Went to Europe and had a blast
- Got promoted and life went downhill from then on
- Work work work and got over the partying phase
- Went to Singapore, KL, Thailand, Vietnam over Christmas and New Year
- 4 year relationship came to an end
- Got back into the partying scene

How is this exciting? I really have no clue...

Gotta talk about something though...the art of deception. The one thing my friends used to tell me is that my facial expressions cannot escape the way I feel. It's always been an area that I've wanted to change about myself, my intensity and propensity to react to situations straight after the occurance is bad bad bad...I think it's much better now though. I've learnt to control these extremities to the point where this whole new style and what I would call an 'art' seems to be blossoming from within.. I'm not quite sure if it's actually a good or bad thing but somehow being able to feel one way and act a different way is all new to me and I'm kinda liking it!
Does this make me more mysterious or am I losing my genuinity? hmmm not quite sure..whatever it is, this new found control is rather empowering. Or at least I'd like to think so.